Today I thought seriously for the first time in a very long time about changing the name of my blog. I didn’t end up doing it (thank you very much “head-games.tumblr.com”)
But it made me think about this blog and how I started it and how I suppose one day I’ll finish with it. It’s a mess at the moment. I reblog the same things over and over again the format is gross and I never write about how i’m feeling because writing doesn’t feel cathartic anymore. I’m sure half the followers I have have no idea who I am and that’s okay. But the thought of having an online diary is somewhat negated by being unhappy with it and not feeling safe and private in it.
I’m not sure how many people read this that I know IRL and for the most part I don’t really care if they do either way. I haven’t found my affairs particularly interesting since the first few years of secondary school (when it felt like the entire world was watching me) since then I’ve been happy to feel like there haven’t been many people who find me interesting enough to want to know my business.
And those I am comfortable with sharing my thoughts do so. I have a vague inkling that my friend Meg (not to be confused with my girlfriend Meg) may have this blog as I was following hers at one point. I’m not sure whether it’s something she pays much attention to. She’s been my closest friend for a long time and I’m happy for her to have it. A few of my friends from sixth form have it and a few people I’ve never met (although I can’t say i’ve ever been one for internet friendship as I’m absolutely atrocious at it).
And then of course the beautiful people inside the three fandoms closest to my heart: AFI, ASOUE, Nazo no kanojo X. I love you all very deeply.
Finally there’s my girlfriend who I happen to be in love with and who happens to be in love with me.
This is a rather rambling post with a lot of content and not a lot of context. I don’t know where it’s going but it’s going there anyway.
I might as well get a few updates out the way:
A list of things that went squiffy somewhere in the middle.
Goodnight sweet internet.
Tomorrow I’m going to post a video with some music in it. It may actually be a music with some video in it as the video will be mostly the same and the music will be mostly different.
Goodbye Nelson Mandella, not many people change the world in the way that you did.
There is a part of me that knows that I shouldn’t start posting periphery lyrics because if I do I’ll never stop.
Unite with ravens on their shadow flights
As my nocturnal right
Gravity is just a mortal’s vice
I already have an enormous problem with Family Guy. It’s a horribly-written show filled with cliches and random cutaway gags that try to mask the fact that the writers can’t come up with a 22-minute story. Why else would they occasionally have a four-minute Peter-vs-Giant-Chicken fight in the…
Did you just simultaneously criticise a show for being conventional and for being unconventional? That stupid you got there is mighty powerful, you better be careful with it, it’s too much for any mere mortal to handle :s